Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Raining .. June, 2011


It rains, It rains, It rains ..
Endlessly, tirelessly,
over the mountains,
across the valley's,
over villages, cities and capitals,
Into rivers, oceans and puddles,
Selflessly, it rains, it rains, it rains ....

It rains , it rains, it rains,
Endlessly, Tirelessly,
Across faces smiling and drenched,
Over roads and highwyas,
cracked off the scorching sun,
into courtyards of warm homes,
Selflessly, it rains, it rains and it rains ..

It rains, it rains and it rains,
Endlessly, tirelessly
Across heavens and god's doors,
forsaken and tyrannical lands too,
Into forest greens and flower grasslands,
Selflessly, it rains, it rains and it rains ..

It rains, it rains and it rains,
Across my mind,my thoughts and actions
Into my heart, caressing my soul
and making me powerless!
Ah! Sometimes to make her smile and dance,
Sometimes to make me sulk and hide my cry,
Selflessly, it rains ,it rains and it rains ....

Summer- Sick! - June 2011


What's the fever,
In my head,
gripping my body,
toying my heart,
What's the fever.

What's the fever,
the crowding around,
same old cover up's,
the wholesome fake,
What's the fever.

What's the fever,
the running around in  8,
selling souls for buying gains,
What's the fever.

What's the fever,
love, a blurring reality.
lust, disguised in love ?
What's the  BiG fever.

Sunshine- May- 2011


An angel came to your cradle,
and kissed you goodbye,
saying you will be like me,
just that you won't fly.

You learned life,
and you were everyone's delight,
you would dance, sing and play
like god's own 'ETERNAL' darling' ways.

You grew up to become,
just like her,
all wise and beautiful,
with a heart so simple,
and soul so pure.

Now as you move on,
into a world with its wordly affairs,
and dark ways,
you stand like a bright light,
like an angel, as she said.
like an angel, as she said.
like an angel, as she said.

p.s Its not complete, the complete one is owned by, Miss Sunshine!

Dark Clouds- Lost - April 2011

This pain is for real...

I thought it was a spark,
as it happens in these years of our lives,
when you see a girl and you think
" This is it, she is my life".

I thought it was Yellow or Red,
as it happens in these years of our lives,
when a girl smiles n blossoms when she looks at you
and you think
" This is it, she is all its worth living for"

I thought it will all go away,
will grow out of it,
but everyday, i woke up,
smiled to myself and said,
" THIS IS IT, she makes my DREAMS every night and day"

I thought if its love, she will knw,
Without me speaking it, she will knw,
That how love is, isn't it ?
When its in your eyes ...
All there.. shinning and pure.

I even searched wilderness and seclusion,
You know,
To find some solace for my troubled soul..
But the solace was still in my dreams,
You know,
where we both are all smiling and happy,
lying in middle of nowhere,
you knw,
till eternity!, you knw.
till eternity!, you knw.

I knw, by now, she knws.
Its just  too evident, I knw.
I am not the one in her eyes, I knw.
and i have to make peace with it for sure.
But this pains to no end, you know.

I wish her well,
for her ship that sails soon.
From the harbors from where i knw her too,
Over the waves of life,
Where, i wish she meets the best one ever.

For me, i am happy in my dreams,
You knw.
where she is still there,
where we both are all smiling and happy,
lying in middle of nowhere,
you knw,
till eternity, you knw.
till eternity, you knw.

or maybe she is swinging on the swing! :D

Deep inside, i knw our waves would cross again too,
As i believe in Destiny and Chance for sure,
and there is something between us,
Which she might realize sometime soon,
and give us a try, for sure....
No NAME, No RELATION, No wordly affairs,
But a feeling of togetherness,
Does and Will bind us for sure..
will bind us for sure ...
will bind us for sure ...

Snuff! March 2011.

I know

this is a place i have been,
coz this is a play i have seen,
these are the acts i have known,
coz i had played them perfectly.
life has come a full circle.
I think.
this is the place i have been,
coz this is a play i have seen,
these actors still look so keen,
unaware to lie cold tonight anonymously..
life has come a full circle.
I wish...
This place should not have been,
coz this play is just too mean,
This final act is NO pretendin,
coz the BULLET fired is to kill.
Life has come a full circle.
if only i could stop him
A young pawn like me,
who played it perfectly,
who played it perfectly,
who 'PLAYED' it P.E.R.F.E.C.T.L.Y.

Cheers to Anonymous ... To Tell you

 As This heart speaks what..my lips do not.
Ah where to find a place , A place to take you where.
Shall bleed my heart to you , its hope and its despair.
                                                                     
Wishes Lurking in me somewhere,
May Come true if I could dare.
To tell this dream ain’t devoid of you,
I find you with me there.
To tell you that I LOVE,
And tell you that I CARE.

Bb , now you not here..I feel soo low.
this soul sublimes and I ‘am’ to.. follow-you                                                            

Some times in my illusions..
I feel you in the air.
A moment you were smiling,
And other you weren’t there.
If  I could,
Tell you that I  LOVE
could tell you that I CARE.
...to tell you that I lOVE ..oh and tell you that I CARE.

P.S : Not Owned by Me.

Here There .. Lady in Yellow!


All about goose bumps!

Ah!     Sometimes when you feel really very down in your life. Things turn awfully monotonous and you are like lying down all day in your room, lazy even to get up for water. Well today was one of those days and it started as one of the most boring mornings for me and ended as the most beautiful evening ever. Lets just say such is the state of my heart that it has inspired me to write after a very long time and my heart is still pounding under my chest. I am sweating while writing this.

I went for this family parties with parents today. As usual , i had just accompanied them out shear respect for them and mom's continuous nagging about how i am getting out of hand.So here i was sitting amongst a group of strangers who are barely know each other and out of courtesy , we exchanged names and all of us know that this was just for the evening as we never had to meet again and neither did we care to do so. Till this beautiful, young girl entered the room. What beauty! What elegance! What charm! What poise! What spontaneity! What vibrant glow on her face! What beauty! Ah! The miff of air around. All hearts where swaying and so was mine. Mine was actually doing karaoke by then. I had lost my consciousness by then as i am blank after that. It was wine personified. I am saying that again as i am and was speechless. Its amazing how i acknowledged so much of her at just a glance but the later part of the evening proved how little i thought of her until the evening concluded and i had lost myself totally.

Well she said hi and we got chatting. Early into the conversation, it was totally formal. My questions and her elegant answers. The other guys at the table were joining in as well and it was nicely going along. The evening was smooth and while every one was having just another day,sitting chit-chatting, i was having a ride of imagination.The rush,warmth and excitement was unusual for me.I have never experienced such a rush of blood to all parts of my body ever.I really do not remember a single word out of the two hour conversation we had but just her quick ways,cute gestures and enigmatic smile.Oh! That smile.She always had some thing or the other to bring up.So involved were we,that the rest had got the cue to fall into groups themselves.We never realized how everyone started leaving near us. Our interests matched.Our opinions matched and half way through the conversation, i had realized that we were hitting it off ! We talked about movies,books,college,society,people and what not.Suddenly we discover our school connections too.She was from my school,just an year senior to me.Then it got even more intense.We took a break for having dinner.I really do not remember eating anything, it was just the dehydration due to continuous sweating and the rush that i had gallons of water.

We rejoined, again conversation sparked off and passions ignited.By now i had completely lost track of time::place::society::what she is speaking:: EVERYTHING. It was she speaking speaking speaking and me awkwardly smiling smiling smiling and the rest of the crowd frowning frowning frowning.I was always contemplating about what my next statement will be while still admiring her slender,glowing and vivacious looks  in my mind.She had clouded my imaginations.

Finally the time came when we had to leave.It was nearing midnight and parents signaled me to leave.The most beautiful evening was coming to an abrupt end but i sort of the day by pushing forward my hand to meet hers for a cordial handshake goodbye(thats how we do that in India).She smiled ever so brightly and was rather amazed and happy to give my compliments.She rose and i rose up too.I said " Its was great meeting you and hope to be in touch", she returned the gesture.And with the ever so lovely poise and grace she walked away.Her body shone brightly under the huge chandelier as she walked in her daisy yellow dress into the crowd.I finished with hasty handshakes all around and went ahead to meet mom.I greeted a lady who was talking to my mother.My eyes still searching hers.My head took a 180' view and finished with she standing in front of me.That lady was her mom.So i was sort of relieved and curious about this.My mother seemed to know her from before due to earlier acquaintance at some other party,i guess.I guess this was the first girl that i have fallen for whom my mom knows and likes.

We walked out of the hall,she was still there but i had to leave.I caught the last glimpse of hers, still talking vividly with a bunch of guys over a few soft drinks.I thought she would look back at me as i leave but i guess she was not aware of the situation and maybe her heart was not pounding as fast mine or she was not loosing her breath ever second like me.But i still think with the kind of passion and brightness in our conversation ,the feeling of loveliness was mutual!  :)  

While i was stepping into the car, i brought up her topic.I said " Mom,she was really cute".Mum smiled slowly, realizing something and said " Yes, i know.A well brought up girl".

All through the drive back home i kept of regretting the follow

1)Why didn't i take her number 
2)Why didn't i confess to her how beautiful she was. 
3)Why haven't  i shaved for 15 days now when i look like a total maverick .

Still , i am too rosy,mushy and warm with the feeling to sleep.This will not go.

Love you.

HOME- VACATION- SUMMER 2010

Had my low's ...


Whatever you do,
Whatever I say,
Its all fine.
Sometimes you smile,
Sometimes I cry,
Its all fine.

Most of the times you are lost,
Most of the times I am sorted out,
Its all fine.

Its likely you understand the reason,
Its obvious when I gift wrap the reason,
Its all fine.

Rarely you give me hope,
Always I give you a chance,
Its still fine.

But when you play around,
With all what I have and most honest about,
Its not fine.

This moment might end,
The magic may get lost,
I might crumble and be lost forever,
But it will only affect me,
As you are always FINE.

Raining .. September, 2010


SHAM - ( No Copyright)

Jagmati jhilmilati palak palak pe boondein hain,
dheereee dheere haule haule shoor machate badal laaljawaab hain,
ke  dhum dhum dhum taaraaaaaa   taraaaa ...  hain khamosh baatein ,
ke  dhum dhum dhum taaraaaaaa   taraaaa ...
hain khoyi khoyi saansein!

Tummm  jooo hote,
 musskurate,
samaa aur haseen ho jata,
abb tum jahan,
bas muskura do,
padh ke dil ka yeh tarana!

ke  dhum dhum dhum taaraaaaaa   taraaaa ...
Hoon khamosh mai bhi

ke  dhum dhum dhum taaraaaaaa   taraaaa ...
Hooo  khamosh tum bhi.
 par jahan ho raha hai deewana!  :))

Lost, severely!


As I lay my head back down,
On the chilled green grass around.
As I raise my hand again and frown,
to the infinite milky sky floating around.
As I point to a few stars shining down,
I smile to myself as I pained ur face
forever in the sky around,
forever in the sky around,
forever in the sky around.

Lost ...


My grey esteem. Standing infrnt of her house. i imagined her house in my dreams.she realizes,i am standing outside wid my car.i can see into her house,can see her talking wid family at a distance in her drawing room.....  she comes out wid some mamiji of hers..  shez dressed in perfect blue sari. Carefully adjusting her sari which is difficult to carry as she seemed tiny in it. But so strikingly beautiful!  radiant glow on her face.. Bright n sunshine ...  den i start takin wid her mami n her .. Jst remember her smiling vivdly big her ever so beautiful ways...  then she n her mami sit in d back seat f d car .. N i on d drivers seat .. Faced back .. Again talking n talking.. She seemed happy sitting in my car! :)  then her servant comes to call dem inside saying her dad wants her.. She rushes back into d house , in worry n quibbing to me'' jaldi, varna dad gussa karenge''  .. She leaves .. Looks back .. Gives me a lost smile ... N dream OVER!   i wake up at 1:30 pm on d clock.


P.s   kya yaar!!

Its May, 2010


If I lay here
If I just lay here now
Would you lie by my side
Watching the sun go
Down in the sky

If I lay here
If I just lay here tonight
Would you lie by my side
Counting the stars
And watching the moon
slip behind the clouds

If I lay here
If I just lay here tonight
Would you lie by my side
And fall asleep
To wake up together
After dreaming sweet dreams

If I lay here
If I just lay here today
Would you lie by my side
Drinking coffee and wine
Eating Christmas Cakes
All throughout the day
If I just lay
If I just lay here today
Would you lie by my side
With your arms supporting me

If I could just lay
If I could just lay here
Would you lie by my side
While I gaze you smiling back at me
While our faces get washed
By the fresh rain

If I just lay
If I just lay here
Would you lie by my side
Playing Tic Tac Toe
On the wet mud next to me

If I just lay
If I just lay here
Would you lie by my side
Until days becomes weeks
Seasons change from autumn to spring
Years pass and we grow old to reach the stars above

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

First sight, then second .. Love ?


I was walking then when you passed
Smiling in the golden gleam of the sun
Like a flower blossoming
And your lips like petals bursting open
And eyes so deep as an ocean
You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since
Like the world has frozen
Again you pass with the same smile
Smiling in the golden gleam of the sun
Like a flower blossoming
And your lips like petals bursting open
And eyes so deep as an ocean
You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since
Like the world has frozen
Again you pass with a giggle
On seeing me there ,exactly there
Giggling in the golden gleam of the sun
Like a flower blossoming
And your lips like petals bursting open
Eyes shining like stars
You are my Sunshine

I am standing there ever since
Like the world has frozen
Again you pass, frowning a bit
On seeing me there,exactly there
Still your face shining under the sun
Like a flower ready to blossom
And your lips like petals ready to burst
Eyes not meeting mine this time
You are my Sunshine

And I am standing there ever since
Like the world has frozen
And you never passed again
Suddenly , its nightfall all around
Just dark , very dark,barren and scary all around


And I am waiting there ever since
To catch another one of those
Smiles,giggles or frowns
In the golden gleam of the sun
Like a flower blossoming
Like petals bursting open
Like eyes so deep as an ocean


You are my Sunshine forever....
And i will Wish and Wait forever....